Three.

Being forced to another skin
I’m not here, I’m not here
Trapped between
desire and confusions
wanting to belong
but I’m not here, not here
consequences of this contusion
I said I love you
but that wasn’t enough
love is not enough

[Chorus]

Because when we are three
I’m not here, I’m not here, not here
‘Cause when we argue like this
I’m not here, I’m not here, not here

Devastated, I’m frustrated
this powerless sensation
that keeps me here, I’m stuck in here
between love and hate
masks of this aggression
I am here, I am here
in front of this nightmare
I did not sign in
why can’t be love enough?
Love is never enough

[Chorus]

Because when we are three
I’m not here, I’m not here, not here
‘Cause when we argue like this
I’m not here, I’m not here, not here

[Outro Chorus]

And I’m not sorry, well I’m sorry
I can make it, would’ve make it
but I’m not here, I’m not here
I’m not here, I’m not here
I’m not here, I’m not here
when we are three
I’m not here.

Red. Three. Autoría propia, 2018.

About a Piano

I wrote a story on an old piano
about a London trip
where I met my dreams and his egos
oh I can’t forget him
though I will forgive it all
cause this life is all about
that same old song

it’s been a year
since we first conquer coldness
in the mountains of a quick revenge
dreaming this would never end
so that’s why you asked me to stay
but forever won’t remain

[Chorus A]

Echoes and flowers
sunsets and hours
flavors of a melody made for two
strangers on a bed
wanting to get through

I’ve heard the tones are raw
and the notes were low
oh the fingers can’t touch, can’t play, can’t call
the memories still hurt
and the past it’s alive enough
to make this a sad song

[Chorus B]

Echoes and flowers
sunrises hours
the truth about love
our highs and our flaws
the moon is a witness
my strength is a sickness
that keeps me living
on my own

I wrote a story on an old piano
I needed to say and to sing
the reasons I have to leave
and even though I love you
and even though I hate that part of you
that keeps me away, far away from you

[Chorus C]

Echoes and answers
questions and madness
I’m moving on
but I’m yours
I’m moving on
but I’m still yours
on an old piano
where I wrote this song
on an old piano
where we made love.

Oh curtains falling
show must go on…

«Piano Lesson» by Maria Karalyos.

La Doña Muerte

[Coro]

 

Y yo bailo con ella, bailo al ritmo de un vals

Coqueteo con sus cejas

La doña muerte y su ritual

Le lanzo besos y no me detiene

Celebra bodas en mi funeral

Sabe muy bien que es lo que quiere

Y a quien al diablo ha de entregar.

 

Las campanas de la iglesia acusan

En un pueblo ajeno donde me fui a pasar

Con las penas descalzas y las consciencia sucia

Tomando vino en el solar

Borracho estaba ya de la angustia

Y me dispuse a celebrar

Que la vida no siempre es justa

Y no por ello me negaré a bailar

 

Y es que se anuncia prominente

Juega de astuta, sabe engañar

Con flores rosa la santa muerte

Barre la escoria, sale a probar.

 

[Coro]

 

Y yo bailo con ella, bailo al ritmo de un vals

Coqueteo con sus cejas

La doña muerte y su ritual

Le lanzo besos y no me detiene

Celebra bodas en mi funeral

Sabe muy bien lo que quiere

Y a quien al diablo ha de entregar.

 

Sabe muy bien a quien he besado

Y que mis labios saben a sal

Lleva un recuento de mis pecados

Mentiras turbias y sexo casual

Sabe que olvido las intenciones

Y que de noche me suelo disfrazar

Sabe que tiento a los temores

Y me revuelco con Eva y Adán.

 

[Coro]

 

Y yo bailo con ella, en una danza tribal

Coqueteo con sus tetas

La doña muerte y su ritual

Llego a besarla y no me detiene

Celebra vidas en mi funeral

Sabe muy bien a quien no quiere

Pero a este diablo se ha de entregar.

 

Ay ay ay la doña muerte

Traigan las velas que ya es noviembre

Abran las telas de su portal

Ay ay ay la santa suerte

Lanza los dados, todo es azar

Caducan años muy lentamente

La doña muerte ay ay ay nos va a llevar.

«Catrina a la Marilyn» Autor desconocido. 

The Wall

Tonight

I look at the wall

I built for so long

And wait patiently for someone to climb

And see what’s behind

I was waiting for you.

 

Tonight

I’ve been writing on the wall

Lame excuses and thoughts

For me to distrust

Anyone who can see my flaws

The way that he does.

 

[Chorus A]

 

Are you ready to look into my eyes?

Are you daring to uncover the lies?

‘Cause life can get messy some times

If I unlock this door, are you ready for the fire?

 

Tonight

I’m staring at the wall

It’s getting so damn high

Since the last time it fell down

When you walked it through.

 

Tonight

The pictures on the wall

Are shadows and ghosts

The secrets and songs

Are getting too old.

 

[Chorus B]

 

Are you ready to look into my eyes?

Are you daring to uncover the lies?

‘Cause life can get messy some times

If I unlock this door, are you willing to come by?

 

Sometimes

We all build a wall

To protect us from the world

So comfortable, so numb

Is this life after all?

 

Tonight

I’m tearing down the wall

It’s getting lonely inside this core

If I kiss you, would you correspond?

Am I human after all?

 

[Chorus C]

 

Are you ready for me to look into your eyes?

Are you daring to share our lies?

Life can get pretty some times

For you, I put my heart on fire.

 

Tonight

I’m writing a love song

I’ll singing it at the top of the wall

If you can hear me

Would you come along?

James Fugot

He walks in the streets of New York

Oh God that man is lost

He has fifth avenue tattooed on his feet

Oh God that man is free

He is a traitor

He is a thief

but he knows how to keep his heart in peace

He is the eye of the storm

He calls himself James Fugot.

 

[Chorus A]

 

Oh run away, get away

before they all forget your name

James Fugot like Mida’s touch

he turns his sins into gold

like the Statue of Liberty

He will stand still for eternity

even if soon he will be gone gone

He’ll be the cause of your burns

 

He writes songs in Greenwich Valley

he is always alone, need nobody

He looks like a star, he’s sad, he’s happy

He is everything you want if you get lucky

He is a lover

but he murders love

the moment he erased the name he forgot

try and get him undercover

then he’ll kiss you until your lips get sober.

 

[Chorus A]

 

Oh run away, get away

before they all forget your name

James Fugot like Mida’s touch

he turns his sins into gold

like the Statue of Liberty

He will stand still for eternity

even if soon he will be gone gone

He’ll be the cause of your burns.

 

[Bridge]

 

Like and old piano and a forgotten song

he can only be heard at the edge of the world

he gets mysterious if you ask too much

he’ll drink a scotch for the man he loved

Please think of him as you hear these words

then you just can call me… James Fugot

 

[Chorus B]

 

Oh run away, get away

before they all forget my name

James Fugot like Mida’s touch

I turn your sins into gold

like the Statue of Liberty

I will stand still for eternity

even if soon I will be gone gone

Let me be the cause of your burns.

«The man is lost» self-portrait. 

Goodbye New York

I’ll pack a bit later

let me enjoy leaves as they fall

as Norah cries on the radio

while she sings a sad song

Manhattan will be waiting for me, I know

and this letters will remain on the floor

autumn will be here again, I know

but you… you won’t.

 

[Chorus A]

 

So goodbye New York

bye bye my love

old streets and new hopes

maybe one day you will know

that I miss you so

specially in the nights of snow

when you’re laying next to someone.

 

My tea’s getting colder

maybe I left a window open

so the wind will be my company

since the cat ran away last week

stories will be written, I know

and my name will be in some corridor

I’ll think of you in each airport

but you… you won’t think of me anymore.

 

[Chorus A]

 

So goodbye New York

bye bye my love

old streets and new hopes

maybe one day you will know

that I miss you so

specially in the nights of snow

when you’re laying next to someone.

 

[Chorus B]

 

So goodbye New York

bye bye to the ones I know

save a hug for my return

maybe we will laugh at this song

so everyone can actually know

that I still miss you so

specially in the nights of snow

even when I’m laying next to someone.

«Lights in Staten Island where I wrote this song». Fotografía propia. 

The Other Man

I’m scared I must admit

my body shakes

my mind is blurry

my eyes can say the honest truth

and I’m not even ready

not over you.

 

I’m scared I must admit

my hands revolving

my heart is jumping

don’t know what to do or what to say

just by seeing you there

my world will fade.

 

[Chorus A]

 

And I’m not trying to impress you

or to even say that I’m ok

I’m just trying to make it simple

a white flag to start again

as friends or strangers

our story will remain

without the sight of others

in the deepest of ourselves.

 

I’m afraid to even touch you

you were once my shelter

my secret threat

now that you’re just too far away

I’m a lonely walker

you’re an empty cave.

 

I’m afraid of my decisions

the steps I took went far away

regret is not an issue

that doesn’t mean I choose the best

mistakes may be my common race

losing or winning, don’t know it yet.

 

[Chorus B]

 

And I’m not trying to forgive you

or to even show that I’m ok

I’m just trying not to feel guilty

a white flag to quit the game

as foes or strangers

our story will hurt again

if we insist to play the cover

of that song kept in our shells.

 

[Bridge]

 

Oh and I thought you were going to be there

waiting for me, waiting just to say

goodbye once and for all

to sign the final chapter and burn the book

but no, you did not came

so I guess this is it

nice to meet you and walk away.

 

[Chorus C]

 

And I’m not trying to believe you

or to even think that you’re ok

I’m just trying to clean this mess

a crime scene where love is dead

as victims or offenders

our treachery will be paid

you as the coward who ran

me as the other man.

«Dick’s Hat» by Trina. 2012.

Tantra

Take my hand
feel the warm
can you hear the blood
running through my mind
drowning all my thoughts
hunger of desire

Oh take my hand
I don’t even know you
I don’t care about your name
just give me what I told you
help me to forget
what night has taught me
amnesia for the best

‘Cause when the crowd is jumping
nobody sees my face
when the sun is rising slowly
and I have lost my sense
perhaps I’m going under
or just getting insane

Take my hand
while the lights are blinding us
use our bodies to guide the way
the sweat and the salt, they judge us
but at the end everyone is the same
slaves of lust and fire

Oh take my past
and throw it away
you don’t need to know my story
we are here just to slay
this dance floor and your bed
every corner, every threat

‘Cause when the crowd is jumping
nobody sees my face
when the sun is rising slowly
and I have lost my sense
perhaps I’m going under
or just getting insane

‘Cause when the crowd is exploding
you and I have raised hell
our sins are full of glory
so don’t expect me to regret
perhaps I’m going under
or just fully insane

ohhh the night ain’t good
ohhh the night ain’t bad
this darkness is spreading
my intentions of despair
our bodies our salvation
the sweat takes all away
take my hand and my shadow
destroy my innocence

‘Cause when the crowd is jumping
nobody sees my face
when the sun is rising slowly
and I have lost my sense
perhaps I’m going under
or just getting insane
if love is a crime
I declare myself unfair
just want you for an hour
or maybe a little less

ohhh the night ain’t good
ohhh the night ain’t bad

 

«Tantra Cross» by Unknown artist.

More to Life (Interlude)

Ohhh

the night ain’t good

ohhh

the night ain’t bad

there are no absolutes

I’m no longer afraid

Ohhh

Some just pray to gods

others say goodbye

someone told me to survive

but there’s gotta be more to life

ohhh

Ohhh

the night is good

Ohhh

the night is bad

there is no reason to cry

there’s gotta be more to life

than just waiting for the dead

Roses

We were in the middle of the road

watching at each other throw the past forever

your eyes crossed into mine

surrounded by city lights

I guess I fell in love.

 

We tried to build our castles in the sand

we thought honesty was all we had

I used to love watching you sleep

in the middle of our lies.

 

[Chorus]

 

‘Cause we were roses

so temporary high

we were closer

we saw into each others eyes

we had our garden

now it’s over

every thorn caused so much trouble

when we were roses

into each others hands.

 

(Oh oh ohhhhh, oh oh ohhhh)

 

We were partners in crime

when we kidnapped forbidden time

We had our secrets,

something to hide.

 

We knew our love was poison

with every kiss we made it better

thought it was enough to keep it together

we messed up destiny

into this lovers felony.

 

[Chorus]

 

‘Cause we were roses

so temporary high

we were closer

we saw into each others eyes

we had our garden

now it’s over

every thorn caused so much trouble

when we were roses

into each others hands.

 

[Bridge]

 

Somehow I knew it from the start

this love was never gonna last

like a one-day flower

we were supposed to die.

 

‘Cause we were roses

so temporary high

we were roses

used to believe there was a chance

but we were roses

we were meant to fade apart.

 

‘Cause we were roses

so temporary high

we were closer

we saw into each others withered eyes

we had our garden

now it’s over

every thorn caused so much trouble

when we were roses

into each others hands.

«Rose Meditative» by Salvador Dalí, 1958.